As life as an "adult" (if you really want to call it that) is rearing its big scary ugly head up at me, it is all coming faster and faster.
I was one of the few that realized that everything goes by really fast and that I should hold onto every moment. But for some reason its like life has been put on fastforward. I am graduating soon, prom is in less than a month as well as another chorus concert and my birthday. Guard will be officially over next Saturday...and just typing that makes me cry. It is one of the hardest things I am going to have to give up and I am so not ready for it. I'm not alowed to come back to assist/teach/or tech for another year along with either DCI or WGI under my belt, and honestly I don't know if that will happen because I have school, and frankly I am so sick of freaking school I want it done as soon as possible. I also highly highly doubt that I could even get into a corp or independent group.
I am not one of those kids so eager to leave their hometown and get as far away from my parents as I can. I love the small country town I live in, I love my parents more than anything. I love my friends, I love my guard......I love my guard, I love my guard. I don't want to leave them, and I have to. It sucks, major ass. (sorry)
I'm not ready...I don't want to be ready yet. But life doesn't stop for the insecure....and unfortunatly I am one of the insecure.
2 comments:
Change sucks! But I know you are going to be more than ok!! You need to come visit!!! :0)
Love you!
Psalm 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."
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